I sin everyday advise me.?

i sin everyday with knowledge of my sinning, i seem to not care what god may think yet in the end i fear hell in all ways, now if i truely feared hell would i not stop my sinning? temptations like juicy snatch reel me down to some cold pit of heartache and trembling, is god punishing me? some may at this point be thinking ( ok so whats the fuc*ing question mate?). i must explain before i question, my dna is all fuc*ed up. my question is, why do i keep sinning even tho i truely do wanna be saved and go to heaven, i want to truely love god above all else but i dont know how. i feel him to a degree but not as jesus did. why the hell not? why cant i stop sinning and why do i not care when i sin!! this mind drives me insane, these deep ual urges burst veins in my shaft. HELP ME!